35 Weeks and playing the waiting game!

First of all... sorry for the lack of updates! My parents moved a couple of weeks ago and I helped by watching :O) then the flu ran around our house like crazy and then on Wednesday of this past week we hit 35 weeks! So, since Wednesday I have been either a) sleeping because I can't get enough of it or b) running around like a chicken with my head cut off. Ok so maybe I'm not running around, it's more like a very painful waddle, but you get my point. I had my weekly appointment on Tuesday and was given the ok to stop my meds and resume normal activities. Hip Hip Hooray! So now we are just taking things as they come. Thank you all for sticking with me through this and for keeping us in your thoughts and prayers. It really means a lot. I will continue to update here and use this blog to keep everyone updated on everything that we have going on.

I'll be back in a bit with some fun pictures!

Still Baking!

Little man is still baking but it's looking as though he may be making an appearance over the next couple of weeks. I have dropped quite a bit as of my appointment this afternoon and the Dr. said he doesn't think that we will make it to "full-term" which would be 37 weeks. I keep saying that we are going to go past our April 30th due date though and they will need to induce me! Anyhow, next week marks a huge milestone... 34 weeks! At that point his chances of being placed on a vent at birth are significantly reduced. So ideally we would like to make it to at least 35 weeks, at that point we should be able to deliver locally and bring him home. So that's where we are right now!
And for some fun! I let the kids paint today and Elle decided that instead of just washing her hands in the kitchen sink that she would bathe in it!

Almost 32 weeks and hurting in my heart...

We are still miserable and will be hitting 32 weeks tomorrow! 2 more weeks and little man's chances of needing to be placed on a vent drop very significantly! My contractions are really picking up these days and are regularly 5 minutes apart around the clock, every other one is extremely painful though so it's making the days (and nights) much longer. Thank goodness they have me on pain meds, although I hate the thought of exposing little man to them.

While I'm so thrilled that we have made it this far I am really struggling with a friend's loss. A women and her family that I have never met in real life are on my mind so very much these days. I long to find the right words to bring her comfort but I know that they will never come and it's physically impossible for me to just give her the hug that she needs and the help that I would love to give. I feel so very guilty that I am just struggling to keep little man in and it really puts all of this into perspective. What I really struggle to understand is how all these women can just dismiss their pregnancies as a major inconvenience and continue on with their lives as normal while many women around the world struggle with infertility, loss or both. It disgusts me every time I get on my birth board and read about women begging to be induced because they are so miserable. I know so many women that would give ANYTHING to be that miserable just at a shot to have their baby. Why in the world would you not want to give your baby the best possible beginning? As far as I'm concerned, my discomfort is NOTHING when it comes to my child's health and well being.

This journey that we are on, although it seriously pales in comparison to many, has really opened my eyes to what my life is really about and what causes I will soon be fighting for. My heart has been touched more than I can explain on so many levels and I can guarantee that in the near future my cause will be clear.